Love

Have you ever been in love?

Horrible, isn’t it?

It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ’maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

I hate love.

I'm dreaming of a white christmas

I just want you for my own, more than you could ever know

You're the one I want to be kissing under the mistletoe

Dear Santa,

I've grown up now and I don't want any more toys. I loved all the years where I had everything I wanted under the tree. I know I should be grateful. I truly am, but this year I don't another toy I'll never play with again. I don't want another broken heart. All I want for Christmas is my soul-mate.

Make my wish come true.
All I want for Christmas is
YOU

A few tips for everbody (including me)

1. Don’t make too much demand on people. No one is perfect.

2. Count your blessings.

3. Be ready to praise others. Praise makes one feel important. But your praise must be sincere.

4. Learn from mistakes. Don’t make the same mistake again.

5. Some misfortunes may be blessings in disguise.

6. Be kind to everyone and you'll probably be treated the same way.

7. Confess if you have done something wrong. You can have the respect of others if you do so.

8. It takes many years to foster a friendship, but it takes minutes to ruin it. Don’t ruin it.

9. Believe that you will make your mark.

10.Listening is more important than telling. The way you tell is more important than what you tell.

11. Spare some time every day to contemplate, read books or listen to some music..
12. Sometimes no comment is the best comment.

Just wanted to say, I'm sorry

To everyone. For everything. To everyone I've ever hurt in any way, I'm sorry.

I make mistakes and I can't be perfect all the time. I'm not afraid to admit I'm probably naive, and have done stupid things in the past and regretted them. I'm only 18, but I've sure screwed up in my life a lot.

I think part of getting over something and having "closure" is being cleansed. If you don't get it out of your head, it will only hover here for a good long while til it resurfaces and the old sad feelings come back. And I definitelyy don't want that to be happening.

I'm not saying I don't know specific people I should be saying this too when I say "everyone". I actually mean everyone, I could name names but I don't exactly think that's appropriate. They know who they are anyways. This is for ME.


I feel awful, completely horrible, about these things that have happened in my life recently and in the past, and even years and years ago. Thinking back, it's like what was I thinking? It's like the horrible realization when you say/do something then realize what the effects of that action is going to be right after it slips out of you. It really is a terrible feeling.


All I'm reallyyy trying to say here is, I'm sorry. I apologize for everything I've ever done to offend, hurt, or anger anyone. I know what I've done, and I'm not proud of it, for sure. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and change it. But what's done is done, and everything happens for a reason.

At least, that's what I believe. So I'm taking this all as an experience, and I'm not going to stress about it anymore. I've done what I can.

I'm not perfect; no one is. But I'm most certainly not afraid to admit the faults about me and take responsibility for my actions. It's part of growing up, I think. You learn from everything. I definitely learned from this.

Love makes life so confusing, but without love would you really want to live?

It's something I think about all the time. Is that why we exist? To love each other? I guess you could say that.

Think about the last great thing that happened to you: It was great because it was great to you, but was part of the reason it was great because you could share it with someone you love? You share feelings with them and they feel happy for you, maybe even just as happy as you are about this news because they're so close to you?

I went through a period in my life where someone I loved always put me down. Called me names like snob. That's still one of my least favorite words. I hated hearing that but I pretended not to care when he called me that. It escalated and it made me feel horrible about myself. I got called a rich snob all the time, stuck-up, rude to everyone, just plain not a nice person. It was terrible. And apparently it was fine to talk to me like that, and I shouldn't have gotten mad about it, and whatnot. But would you let someone talk to you like that? Didn't think so.

At that point whenever something happened, something good for once, I felt like I couldn't share it with the one I loved because I would just be called a snob. It made the whole news become a little less great. I mean, can you really experience greatness alone?


We need lovers to share our life and happiness with. Could we really live without them?